Once again Bonnie has suggestd I start blogging again. Just can't imagine what I could say to get started. The depression has been relentless this year. Kind of an on one month off one month kind of thing. The persistenc of it has me discouraged and kind of defeated Feels like I can't commit to anything without the fear of having to back out if the darkness descends. I always try to keep at the things I have planned when it sets in but to no avail. The slide down hill seems inevitable. Have long been questioned about strategies for keeping th clouds at bay and preventing the slide before it gets bad. So far I haven't been able to come up eith strategies to accomplish that. Feel like I have heard it all when it comes to therapy and well meaning suggestions. Withdrawing isn't the best thing to do but seems like the only alternative. Thank heavens for email and Facebook to stay in touch. Will have to go back to the list of thnigs to do that I found online. Of course they all seem impossible in face oaf thaae darkness.
One thing to remember is to let everyone know that no matter how powerless they feel to help, they do help more than they'lsl ever know. Also think about how your pain might help others.
