5 am again. Worries me a little that I'm so wired but will get the sleep thing down eventually. Had been thinking about how I had told Dan that I was pleased that I was thinking of retirement as moving towards something rather than moving away from something. Had laughed at my hubris to think I really meant this. Those first couple of weeks I truly thought this was a long way from being true. But today I was on campus. I had always been thinking that once I closed the door on that chapter of my life that I couldn't go back there. Well it dawned on me that I can still participate in things around there just in the way that I choose. Talked to Michael M about the gallery and continuing to do stuff there. Had been so upset about not doing something for the custodians before I left. Well duh I can do it now and not feel rushed about it. Something about doors opening and closing.